Five.

Today was just one of those days that sucked! It felt like it dragged on forever.. I know we all have those days. I'm just so tired. Where are my friends when I need them most? I feel like everybody is just ignoring me today. It sucks. Just about every single one of my friends. I want to start over so bad sometimes. I can only remind myself though, that the past has made me who I am today. My past.. Hurts a lot. I only have myself really to blame for putting myself in some situations and letting people hurt me right? I don't know. I have a big problem with trusting people. It seems whenever I start to trust somebody they turn around and do something so bad to lose my trust.. Why.. can't people just be honest? is it so hard.. Whats so hard about that? I really just don't understand people a lot. Or maybe I am just so different. I just feel like I don't belong sometimes.. I just feel like giving up :'(

Its hard to be stronger, I just have to keep trying.. keep trying, I know..